oh man

Another term is almost over and i am so glad I had the chance to be with this class here. Between the professor and the support I recieved through all of you has made things here a lil easier to bare. Things here are not too much different but have settled down some. I am still looking for a place still and hoping to find a job soon. I have been turned down from a few jobs.. maybe because of my age, I don't know. They seem to be hiring the younger ones and forgetting that people like me have kids to support. I unfortunately went on public assistance because me unemployment ran out...til the government finally passed for more funding.. I can collect for 13 more weeks. Public assistance isn't all that bad just doesn't give you enough to live on and has "classes" we have to go to. But there are some perks to it... gas cards if you do your time each week... get your car repaired, can get a "new" one if you don't have one..And when you get a job, they pay for some of your gas to go to work, and if you work for 6 months, they give you a bonus for staying at a job...which is cool. I get to do my college work there all day and still get benefits.
Next week, Friday, I have to see a gyneocologist about pain in my ovaries... My dr says there is a cyst there and thinks I can get them removed, my ovaries. I would also want my uterus removed as well. He sees no problem in that. If any keep up with your post on a daily bases after this, I will post more and let you know what is going on.
I hope to see everyone of you at graduation next year. I was told now that they moved my date to later Sept 2011, or October 2011. I have not failed a term yet and don't plan to. I am going to study hard Next classes are "diseases of the human body" Mondays 8pm and "Pharmacology" wednesday 10pm. Let me know who has what next... catch ya all on Face Book

almost over

Another term is almost over and am going to miss all of you. It has been a roller coaster ride for me and my children here at home. And it hasn't been fun. Saturday I learned that my rrommate/exbf went up north to see his old girlfriend and didnt tell me where he was going. I am suppose to tell him everything but it's none of his business. like he tells me. I also found out that he was seeing her all the time we were dating... evenwent to a concert but never took me to one...only stupid guns shows... I prefer train shows... Last night he even tried to deny things which I know he did and are true...and he use to say that he loved me..doubt that, just was being used til I had no more job and not much money coming in. what's up with that?
Now we are struggling to find a place to move to and I can be on my own again...liked it better that way before with not having to answer to any one as to where I was or going to... I'm over 21...jeepers. WAY OVER..lol Well my kids are mine and not his and if I let them play video games all day, thats MY business.. Right? right. Anyways, trying to keep things on the low so not to be thrown out any time soon. But can't wait til I can say that I have my own place and let you all know. I'm not sure if all of you plan to keep this or look us all up on face book. But am doing good so far in this class and A&P2 which is really hard... last exam is 3.5 hours long with 183 questions. I hope I do well and pass. Idon't want to take it again... catch you all on that uphill climb...Thanks for being here for me... :)

Well another semester is almost over with. So far am able to stay here but doesn't seem promising. Not especially I find out that graduation day keeps moving... I have not had to repeat any terms but I don't know why they keep changing the date. First I was told May 2011, then changed to August 2011, No after getting a call for my new classes schedules, I hear it is now some time end of October. I was told in the beginning that I was only going to be in college for 1 1/2 years but now turned into over 2 years. I don't get it. I even was told that A&P 2 was the hardest class but my other advisor says they keep getting harder. Now I am worried. With not much support from my roommate/ex bf.... it won't be easy. My kids are getting tired of me not spending time with them because I am always doing class. work. I hope I don't have to do any more essays because I am all essayed out.
My life here has simmered just a little but still get the same ole same ole crap from him.."I want my house back" , "Did you find a place yet?" " What are they doing now?" (meaning my kids),etc. oh and the best one.. when I say something to him or answer him he says,"yeah right." Am trying to keep things at a low here for my kids sake. My son gets too upset if we argue... I just go in another room after everything n kids are in bed and cry to myself. He is one cold-hearted 'whatever'..no human in my eyes. Love? I gave up a long time ago. He only "loves" someone if he has total control. Not with me he's not. I learned my lesson with my ex husband... I am my own boss. :) I was a gentle person, can be but with him, am tired of being nice. I love being in love but takes 2 people, not controlling. I would love someday meet 'Mr right' but right now will settle for a good job, a place of my own and my own bed....Thanks for letting me say all this. Please feel free to comment. I could use all the support right now. For personal emails.. please jandersen41@yahoo.com or find me on Facebook.. Pennsylvania, JoAnn Andersen..oh use correct spelling or you won't find it.... take care and God bless you all...

staying home.

Yesterday had to go to the doctor's with a few problems. I woke yesterday morning with my right eye being blurry. I have had a redness in the lower part of my eyelid since Friday and thought I was bitten by something. Happened before. But turns out that I have an eye infection and not pink eye. I can't be around too many people for a few days til the meds take affect. Am ok with that. Also have been having sharp pains in my lower abdomen and need a MRI which will be on Thursday morning. Funny thing is that while I am doing my project on menopause, the doctor is going to run some tests to see if I am in the early stages of menopause (perimenopause). I haven't been sleeping well at nights and most nights takes me about 2-3 hours to fall asleep even though I am "dead" tired. Plus trying to find a place to move to soon is taking it's toll.
A bit of good news but sad for me some. My daughter Brooke comes home next week and they go back to school on Wednesday. I like having my son here with me all day, most days. I will miss them throughout the day though. But they get home around 3:30pm. So not too bad. I do miss having Brooke around but there has been no agruments or fights here with her gone. Don't get me wrong, I love my kids !! Hey maybe I can get more work done around here when no one is home...do class work, blare radio when cleaning..etc...woohoo...

nothing special

Sorry that I don't have anything special to report. I had finally received a letter from a place I use to work at but they are not going to hire me back. Not a very good time for me right now as I am suppose to be out of here by the 25th when my kids go back to school. I don't know what I am going to do because I don't want to live on welfare. Not my style! I did call back unemployment today and found out that they finally got the state funding for here and can receive more unemployment for a few more months. That's great for me because I can now get my child support back... welfare takes that when you apply there. Stinks. But I am hoping to be able to stay in college til I grad next year in May or August 2011. They keep changing the date. Then my whole world will change for the better because I will have a better paying job and can give my kids what they need/deserve. And for myself as well. Wish me luck. Then after all that is done, I may be moving to North Carolina to live with/near my brother and his wife.
As for the weather, it has been raining all day today. Good for the crops but hate being indoors all day long. Catch ya all later.... see you all in class!

Seems to be a good weekend so far. Yesterday i made home made lasagna and my mom's famous Spanish rice. A lot of it. Now my mom's and dad's version of Spanish rice isn't the same as everyone else's. We only use Minute Rice lightly browned in a frying pan with sauteed chopped onions and peppers. Next we add hamburg we already fried in another pan (or you can fry it with the onions and peppers before you add the rice.) Then we add tomato sauce, tomato paste and some water. This will be a little watery but the rice will soak it up. My family loves it this way without all the other added ingredients we don't like. Tastes better,too. The lasagna is simple.. lasagna noodles, ricotta cheese, mozzarella cheese, and Parmesan cheese, hamburg or sausage, spaghetti sauce, parsley, and pepper. i don't add salt to anything. If people want it, they can add it on. Salt isn't that good for your anyways.
My brother and his wife came up from North Carolina to visit the weekend. We are having a family get-to- gether on Sunday at a park not too far from here. I got to visit with them last night and is really great to see tham again. It has been ages. Get you caught up on this at a later date.

Some good news

I had a job interview on Tuesday at an old job of mine. I will know the results whether I get hired or not by the end of this week. I looked into the CNA training and job and they can't guarantee me 40 hours a week, even though it's $12 - $14 per hour. She told me that I might work one day/ one hour/ per week or maybe a lot of hours. There was no set hours. I can't live by that. I need a 40 hour week or more and a steady paycheck. So please wish me luck that i get this job and I can get my child support back. (public assistance takes that when you go on full welfare). Have a great day and a great weekend. I will post again if/when I hear something.